Worst part is it’s me – I screw up big time
- it’s not me paying
- have to stand and watch how the impact is destroying someone I claim to love unconditionally
Love suddenly becomes tangibly
- physical in so many ways and I’m not entitled to claim … anything
How could I be so stupid - so egoistic
How could I
- leave the mess for others to clean up
It hurts - suck it up – Just shut it – it’s nothing like what she’s paying
Nobody gets more than they deserve – bullshit – she does not deserve this – I did it to her
I’d give my life for her – there’s nothing she needs from me now
- I suck at that too
I started it – nothing more nothing less!
“… loosing what I don’t deserve … “
Pain – they’re there – I’m not loosing those
They’re for being so cruel
Those I can claim.
